2011 will be an amazing year for me, i've decided. here is what i will do:
-get in better shape, eat healthier, lose five pounds.
i feel better when i'm around 130 instead of 135, and i know all i really have to do is quit eating junk food and "easy" calories that i don't need. i've got a lot more muscle than before, but i'm using that as an excuse to eat like shit. if i ate the way i did when i was broke, i'd be in fucking fantastic shape, and that's what i want. i want to get more cardio in - running, walking, the toner thing; and for lent i'm going vegan. for real, no cheating. i'm tired of not feeling as good as i should or i deserve because i'm taking a lazy way out.
-GET INTO GRAD SCHOOL.
technically this would happen in 2012, but every single thing i need to do is this year. study for and take the gre (and get awesome scores); write my resume/cv; get all the necessary copies of my undergrad transcripts; get recommendations (todd, scott, lynda); write a 10-page research paper as a writing sample; edit & complete my demo reel; write a thesis proposal/grad school goals/etc; fill out all the application materials for the ten grad schools. i want everything to be as good as i can possibly make it because i don't want to have to do this again. i want to take charge and move forward with my life, and i know that won't happen if i don't make plans and set goals and take steps to make it happen.
-save save save money like a scrooge.
i need to adopt the philosophy of, "if i were broke, would i spend this money?" and if the answer is no, then i need to not fucking spend it. i mean, going out with a couple people occasionally or a slight indulgence is totally understandable, but i need to stop buying shit from jc or pier1 because i don't need it. the more money i save, the better off i'll be for grad school.
...this is really it. be healthier, be proactive, be thrifty. i would really like to get to mass, you know, ever, so hopefully i'll be able to get that in also. other things would be to complain less, be a nicer person, keep my douchey comments to myself, that kind of thing. i don't want to be thought of as an asshole, not really, and i definitely don't want to think back on myself as kind of a twat.
i would like to actually get my tattoo plans solidified, maybe even researched. i know i want the narnia line on my left ribs (the dream is ended: this is the morning.) but i need to decide placement, font, size, etc.
basically i just want to get my life in order and get on with it so that my future can be everything i hoped for and amazing things i never realized were possible. i want to be happy and free and i want to do everything i can to make my dreams a reality.
that said, 2011 will be an amazing year. i don't just have high hopes for it, i WILL make this shit happen.
|the promised land : bruce springsteen|